i don’t know when it started
the divide,
murky where once crystal.
my subconscious spills,
viscous and prismatic,
dreamscape oozing into my cerebrum.
crucial mechanics are compromised.
my brain sputters and shudders,
perception irrevocably stained.
yet, worry eludes me.
thus it spreads.
a cancer,
feeding slowly but surely infecting every system.
spiral staircase cracked and bleeding,
a systemic annihilation.
what do you do?
what do you do, when you can’t trust yourself?
every thought questioned,
every moment scrutinized.
blood thunders a beat against my ear drums,
a symphony of insanity
hurting through a kaleidoscope
shapes and colors blur past: hypnotizing, consuming
time slows, suspended in warm orange
desperately i reach, grasping at a lifeline,
the last pure tendril of my mind.
i feel the certainty of my mind
one last time
my fingers slip
i succumb.